monday night dreary.

I want peace. I want serenity.

I want someone to love me as much as I love them.

No questions.

I want to stop being concerned about the future all the time.

I want to be truly happy.

For at least a little while.

I want to work hard at something.

And actually succeed.

I am tired of being a failure.

Being someone who cares so much for another

But has nothing in return.
I am sick of waiting for my moment of happiness.

I see people with love surrounding them.

In this obnoxious sight that hit my in the heart.

Only to saying you cannot have this bliss.

No matter how bad you want it.

I am a constant misery to others and myself.  

I don’t know how to change.

I want to be a good person but constantly I feel like a fool.

I try to handle thinks on my own.

I am never competent enough to do things right.

I hate never being well enough in life.

I need more help. I cannot do this on my own.

It never gets easier.

I want something magnificence to happen to me. 
something beautiful.